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QE

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My new favorite show is called Queer Eye and it's the most amazing thing in this world. It's five gay guys that go around to different men around the country and give them a makeover and make them feel amazing about themselves. It's so beautiful and pure and there's no drama shit and it's not fake and I love it. Amen. Love Tess

Safety

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I had an experience the other day where I didn't feel all that safe. I was with someone I trusted but they are not the best influence. And by not the best influence I mean they just tried to get me more fucked up then I'd like, but I didn't let them. I was the most fucked up I've every been, I was in a public place, I couldn't focus on anything, I don't remember a lot from that day, and it just overall felt like a dream. Now normally I think I would've been fine if I wasn't out in public, if I was at home or at my friends house I probably wouldn't have freaked out as much. But because it was such a new experience and I had to focus on acting normal when focusing at all was very difficult. Time felt like it was moving quickly and yet like it didn't exist at all. I kept thinking I was in a dream or I felt like I wasn't real, and that freaked me out. In order to feel like everything thing was real I kept track of the time, kept track of how long...

Spencer

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I love my Spencer. He is my favorite human and he makes me feel safe and warm. He doesn't make me feel bad about myself or what my past was. He makes me happy in this moment, forget about the past and hope for an amazing future with him. He is my life and my light (lol some people say that about Jesus). I love him.

Welcome

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Just a place for me to put my smoke covered thoughts lol, In fact making this blog was a smoke covered thought. Please no judgy judgy, thats not very nice. I believe everyones a shining star. Love Tess